Friday, January 21, 2011

Friday Friday!

Mason Update:
Thanks to everyone who sent well wishes and prayers for Mason. I believe we are on the mend! He has not had a fever since yesterday morning and has not needed any medicine since than either. He also slept through the night! Now all I need is to make sure everyone else stays healthy. Lots of Lysol and cleaning today!

Yesterday I laid my comforter on the living room floor and we spent all morning there. Cuddling, playing games, reading books, watching movies, doing puzzles. Recuperating. The boys LOVE these puzzles they got for Christmas. They are the Melissa & Doug sound puzzles! A huge hit around here.

Do you have snow where you are at? We woke up yesterday with maybe an inch of snow. It snowed all morning, but we only accumulated around 3 or so inches.

I know it's not as much as a lot of people have. Before we moved here we lived in Florrisant, Mo. which is only about 45 minutes from here and they have about 10+ inches! Crazy! Although still not as much as everyone in like Minnesota is used to.

It was super cold yesterday and with Mason being sick, we didn't get to go out and play in the snow. Thankfully the boys are still young, they didn't even ask to go out. I am hoping that maybe next time it snows, or even next year we can take the sledding, we haven't done that yet. Actually I haven't been sledding since I was a kid! What is your favorite activity to do in the snow?

Last night I was watching Jersey Shore, classy TV right?! I know, but damn I am addicted to that show! Anyway Snooki was talking to her dad about being arrested and he was telling her how disappointed he was in her, and she said that is one of the worst things a parent can tell their child.

And it hit home.

I couldn't agree more. Sometimes your parents are going to be upset with you, angry, sad. But disappointed, that hits you right in the heart.

Having my first child at the age of 19. I was in my second year of college, Tim and I were of course not married. That was the first time I had ever heard my mom say she was disappointed in me. And while I don't remember my dad saying it to me I am sure it disappointed him too.

They were disappointed that I wasn't more responsible and safe. They were disappointed that I didn't finish college. They were disappointed that now I had a child to raise and would lose out on so much.

And it hurt. It was not a good feeling to know you disappointed your parents, but I understand why. And I am sure that when I found out I was pregnant with my second, and then third. That the hope for me to return to college, disappeared a little and they were disappointed again. Even though they love their grandchildren with all their heart, I know they wanted more for me, they wanted me to do and be better.

Lets be honest, I am a little disappointed with myself. I may never be able to finish college, which I was so excited about doing. Tim and I will never have that important couple time to really build a relationship before you have children. I don't even know when we will get married. But there is one thing I can tell you and that is I love my kids with all my heart, and I do NOT regret having them. I would not trade them for the world.

Just like my parents, I have hopes and dreams for them. I am sure that at times they will make me angry, sad, upset, happy, overjoyed, and even disappointed. But I hope like me, they know that being disappointed with a decision they have made in life does not mean I love them any less or support them any less. I will always be behind them 100% no matter what.

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April Westerhold said...

So glad that Mason is feeling better! Love all of the pics. We all disappoint our parents at one time or another but it is only because they had their own dreams for us. It does truly hurt to hear it and to know it, though.

gorillabuns said...

it's hard being a parent and a child of your parents. the need to constantly not disappoint and please does get quite tiring.

Short Leg Lucy said...

you hit it on the head with this... i too, had Maia out of wedlock in the middle of my first year at college. It's hard. And my dad ignored me my whole pregnancy. He just wouldn't talk to me. I don't regret Maia but I do wish I would have waited a little longer! Glad to hear that the little man is feeling better!


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