I'm Alive...kinda!

First I want to say thank you so much for all the support, and wonderful comments on my announcement post. It means a lot to me.

This pregnancy so far has been sucking the life out of me! I am so exhausted, not sleeping well, and waking up to a headache and nausea every morning. It's rough, but I know it's all worth it in the end.

The hardest part though about announcing this pregnancy has been the reaction of family and friends. I expected people to be shocked, I mean honesty I was totally shocked. I never in a million years thought I would conceive on the IUD once much less twice. But most of the reactions have been rather negative.

I know that most of the family like my parents and Tim's parents are just worried about us. I understand, we live tight now with three kids and adding one more is going to be tuff. But I haven't really received much positive reactions from friends. It makes it a little hard to be really excited about a new member of our family when no one else seems to share in the excitement with you.

My main stress right now is all about our living situation. To me at least, it appears that we will have to move. We have absolutely no wear to go with a new baby. We live in a small 3 bedroom house with no basement. The boys room is crammed with a bunk bed and all the toys, Taylor's poor room is crammed with her crib and the boys 2 dressers. I have NO idea how we would fit 2 beds in Taylor's room. Tim doesn't think it will be possible to move because we know our landlord and are paying a lot less than normal for this house.

So I am stressing a little about what we are going to do, but I know that in the end it will all work out. It always does!

Last week after I took the positive pregnancy test, I immediately called the doctor's office and explained my situation. I went in that afternoon. They did a urine pregnancy test, it came back positive. They did an ultrasound to make sure the could see a baby and that they baby attached to the right place. There was a tiny baby and a low IUD visible during the ultrasound. She then removed the IUD. I have a 2 week period now to wait and pray that I don't miscarry, there is always a risk for disrupting the pregnancy when you remove the IUD.

She said that the IUD appeared to be way too low, but that it's uncertain if it was originally put in too low or if it has slipped over the year that it was in. So I go back in about a week and a half for another ultrasound the make sure everything is still OK, and to check for sure how far along I am. The baby was so tiny it was still too early to really tell how far along I am. But going by my LMP which I am 100% sure on, my due date that they gave me is January 13th.

Switching gear. Yesterday we took the kids to the lake with grandma and grandpa to do a little fishing. I wasn't feeling well, and was hoping that some fresh air would do me some good. It was a beautiful evening, not too warm, and a cool breeze by the water!

Timothy did great with his little pole. He would have grandma hook a cricket, and he would cast all by himself. He had a little trouble staying focused and watching his bobber, but he hooked quite a few little fish. The excitement on his face was priceless! His favorite part was fighting to reel the fish in. These were tiny fish, but they put up just enough fight for Timothy!

Mason was much happier to follow grandpa around the lake, blow bubbles, or of course snack on food! Taylor was just along for the ride, literally. I pushed her all around that lake and she just happily kicked her little feet! She was such a good little girl.

Mason did catch one fish that he was pretty thrilled about, but he didn't want to get too close to it. He really just wanted to leave it hooked hanging it the water, but don't worry we let him go! It was such a fun evening with the kids!

All the fun ended though when Timothy hooked himself in the head. I didn't see it, but Tim's mom said he started to get wild with his casting, and some how hooked himself right behind his ear. Thankfully it barely stuck and was easy to get out with no bleeding at all. He was fine, scared, but OK!

I hope to get back to regular blogging, and stay caught up. But it's all up in the air with how I am feeling. Some day's it takes all I have to hold my shit together and not puke. The past few weeks, I get on the computer once or twice a day for a few minutes, and that's all I can handle.

If anyone has any suggestions for morning sickness, I am all ears! I have had several suggestions to try Unisom, has anyone used that for morning sickness? I may just give it a try.

I promise that one of these days, hopefully this week, I will catch up on all of your blogs and commenting. I have missed all my blog reading, and keeping up with your lives. So please hang in there as I slowly try and get back into the swing of things.

Again thank you for all the kind words, I really appreciate it! I hope you all have a wonderful week!